okok bac to blog... herm todae off larhx... then nth to do... juz stay at home do nth larhx... replay xian jian qi xia zuan no1... herm and jiu re-came across this larhx... jiu feel like putting it down la... here it goes...
魔非魔 道非道 善恶自在人心
欲非欲 情非情 因缘由天定
juz feel it quite meaningful larhx... sometimes hurting some1 is actualli helping or rather doing him good.... u may hate some1 for doing something but if he do otherwise u will hate him more... 世上无绝对吧... take love 4 example... is breaking up wif some1 u USED to love good or bad... sometimes love changes is realli out of control... continue r/s out of fear to hurt some1 is a kind of lie... does it not hurt? breaking up hurtx the other party directli... and so u wud the so called fu xin han... or easier said the one person at fault? base on the xjqxz tv story la is ling er helping or hurting... even if xiao yao noe wht happen he will be willing to be wif her... as long as the love remains... being seperated hurt him more... but seeing xiao yao taking up dangerous task becuz of her will hurt her too... izzen it a tough choice? lolx.. so i shd sae follow the heart...

okok second meaningful verse...
既然不回 何必不忘
既然无缘 何必誓言
今日种种 似水无痕
明夕何夕 君已陌路
somehow in life one hafta learn to let go... to me itx everydae tt matters... having the dae makes veri thing possible... there is still hope... y hang on to something when u noe thingx can never be the same? y make promise when u never noe the future... somethingx are juz out of ur control... whtx past may leave behind a memory but can u juz live wif it? wht may seems certain now but wht bout the future? ppl used to insist the world is flat but wht now? and everything is bac to fate... juz make full use of everydae and somehow there will be no regrets...

AND i am nt there yet lolx... easy to sae diff to be done... but ohh wellx... itx my path to growing up... maybe one dae reading bac my blog i wud realize thingx? at least this is like more of realistic? it will stay here until my blog is done =p itx nt a memory but a part of my thinking bahx... and maybe a lesson 4 mi when my li zhi is down in my dark times =p... cyaz...